i'm talking myself out of pregnancy

i'm 6w5d and don't feel pregnant.  my boobs are a little sore.  the past 2 mornings, i had a headache and some nausea, but it was also dreary, rainy, humid weather, which is a perfect trigger for migraines.  this morning i felt fine. 

you've heard of psychosomatic pregnancy, right?  where a woman believes so strongly that she's pregnant that her body starts to mimic actual pregnancy symptoms?  i wonder if there is an opposite kind of thing.  where, like, i'm still not really convinced that i'm pregnant so i'm making my body behave as if i'm not? 

i'm dying here, waiting for our first appointment.  it's still a week and a half away.  all i want to know is if i'm legitimately pregnant and if everything is measuring ok!  it's a whole new 2ww and it's fucking brutal.

also, something outside my office door is making the most obnoxious sound in the world and i want to find it and kill it.

bbt spike

my bbt spiked this morning from a steady post-o temp of 97.7 to 98.2.  of course, i immediately google what that could mean.  seems that sometimes a post-o spike at or around 7 dpo (which is where i am today) could mean implantation.  if the temps stay high like that, it's considered a triphasic cycle.  i haven't had a spike like that before.  last month i had kind of a steady climb before it plummeted back down right before af.  this time it's held pretty steady at 97.7, with that big shot up today.  i'm anxious to see what happens over the next few days! 

we leave for our vacation on thursday 5/3.  af is due on 5/4.  i'm going to try to hold out until after af is due, but i may cave and poas on thursday before we leave for our trip.  we're staying with one of my high school besties, who knows that we've been ttc (she and her hubby struggled with it for about a year), so it would be so exciting to share good news with them! 

trying not to get my hopes up, but feeling good this cycle! 

weird signs

so i think o day was yesterday.  i think.  i'm not sure because my temperature spiked on saturday, then yesterday dropped again, and today went back up. 

source: from fertilityfriend

that's my chart on fertility friend.  see, it's kind of all over the place.  i'm not entire sure that that 97.7 on the 21st was totally accurate - i had kind of been awake for a while before taking my temperature.  if it is, i'm anxious to see where ff is going to put my coverline.  i'm kind of guessing it'll be around 97.6, with that 97.7 being just a fluke. 

yesterday and today i've been having some weird symptoms and i'm really not sure what to think of them.  i had some minor cramping yesterday and then last night i felt really nauseated.  i could have been due to the big slupper (late lunch/early supper) we had, but who knows.  also, yesterday and today my boobs have been very sore.  i usually get some soreness about a week before my period, but this is way early and a little different.  i've read that some women experience ovulation pain, so i'm assuming maybe that's what i'm having? 

as you can see, we kept pretty busy this past week.  i took my fertile cm faithfully (and definitely noticed a difference).  as far as i'm concerned, we're in our latest 2ww.  af is due on 5/6, which is the day we leave our friends' house in peachtree to drive to savannah.  abriel has been aware of the ttc journey for us all along, so it would be so wonderful to share exciting news with her!  if this cycle doesn't work, i'm calling the doctor, cuz we definitely did everything right this time around! 

i'm waiting!

anyone else hear this in your head when you read my title?


I'm Waiting.... Princess Bride

just me?  ah, well.

according to all my trackers and bbts and everything else, i o'd on friday 3/23.  af is due 3/6, so if it doesn't arrive by then, i'll poas on 3/10. so we're in yet another 2ww!  i don't know, but i feel good about this month.  i just checked, and if this is our lucky month, my edd is 12/12/12 - ha!  wouldn't that be crazy!

2ww

according to ovuview and fertilityfriend, my o date was monday 2/20.  so we are now officially in the 2 week wait.  i am behaving as though i'm pregnant - i skipped a beer fest on saturday and i'm trying to eat and drink a bit more conciously than i usually do.  af is due on 3/6, and i should poas on 3/10 (if af doesn't show up). 

keep your fingers crossed and send me baby dust!


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